Being attracted to the same sex was as normal and natural to me as it was for a man and woman to be attracted to each other. I did not want to be drawn to the same sex, but for me these same sex attractions were all I had ever known. I do not think anybody feels elated with the discovery of their homosexual feelings. I think they just try somehow to make it right.
Now, I had two possible choices to make. 1) I could believe I was born gay and embrace my sexuality, or 2) I could believe God’s word that says I was not created this way and there is a way out. Over the years I have bounced between these two choices. The decision that has brought me the most freedom and joys this side of heaven has been choice number 2.
When I was traveling down road number 1, I was deceived and just trying to make it work. I drank a lot, was emotionally a wreck, and I exhibited dangerous behaviors. Suicide seemed to be the only way out of my misery. I was captive to my unwanted same sex attractions.
Colossians 2:8 talks about how we as Christians CAN be taken captive: See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. What God says about homosexuality — NOT the world -- was what I choose to believe.
The world says this is who you are. Do not deny yourself your sexuality. Be who God created you to be. I think this is a lie from the father of lies—satan. The truth, that comes only from God, says a homosexual is not who you are. He wants us to draw into Him and let Him tell us who we are In Christ.
So what happens when we do choose number 1? We hang out with people who agree with us. 2 Timothy 4:3-4 confirms this. For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. They will turn their ears away from the TRUTH and turn aside to myths.
What is truth anyway? Truth is reality as perceived by God, not the world. There will always be people around who will verify what we want to hear. In fact, the world bombards us every day with lies about homosexuality and how it is okay. I had to make a choice. You have to make a choice. Believe God or believe the world’s view and what your feelings (which lie) are telling you.
Truth verses lies. These battles have been raging since the Garden of Eden. Choose wisely this day who you will serve, the creature or the Creator. The choice is yours and the choice is mine.
God bless you all and may the Lord Jesus Christ give you the strength to make the right decision.
Redeemed,
Sydney Johnson